THE DAY WHERE THE FLOWER BLOOMS
As
my memories started to fade away, my consciousness began to vanished into the
paradox of time. Every time the memories about us triggered my mind, I cried
internally. Back when the day we first meet, we were stranger that looking for
an opportunity and excitement during that time. We walked on the different path
but still in same direction heading toward the light of success. At the first
glance I saw you, my eyes go wild and my mind is completely in chaos. I get so
nervous that my heart start pounding fast as it could. And then you return a
favor by looking back towards my eyes with a smile. I felt like I’m on another
world. Too much happiness to devour during that day.
We started to
know each other because of that silly drama that we need to do during the
ceremony. And many of our friend started to tease us with it. Trust me, at that
time I feel so embarrassed and funny in the same time. Shouting for the rescuer
for help, while you beside me pretending to be crying and asking for help.
After that moment we lost contact for a while. But not long before that, I
began to wonder if somehow, we can get in touch through WhatsApp. So basically,
what I do is that I tried to ask the people in the same group as you to give me
your number. At first, they refuse to give it but as far I can remember you
also asking for my number (Is it right?) so they gave up and give it your
number to me.
Normally the guy
will do the first introduction. But in this case, it was you the one that
messaging me first (Its not that I’m not a gentleman okay). I replied your chat
and from there we get try the along. Telling our interest and cliché
pickup-line (To be honest, the pickup-line is all my idea). Day by day, our
conversation getting deeper and deeper. So does our feeling. I started to fall
in love with you charismatic and behavior. So, on that night I bravely confess
my feeling towards you. And what I did not know is that you also secretly keep
the same feeling as I do. So, on 18th April 2017 we officially in a
relationship. The day where the flower blooms. Where our soul intertwined. The
beginning of sweet memories to cherish.
But now it is
different, now all of that was a memory that will be always in remembered. It’s
not that I want to make you feel guilty or something. It’s just that I need to
expressed it somewhere so that I can relief my pain about it. You always said
that “if you want me. Try to change, change for good and be a better person”. I
guess I’m still the same person as I am 2 years ago. I will never be good for
you in the near future. It’s the best that you keep on relationship with him.
Because, he knows how to take care of your needs and he deserves you. I hope
that you will always happy with him.
If somehow our bonds are getting along again,
and if by any chance it works again. I try my best to be the one that you want
me to be. But I know it wouldn’t going to happen. And it will never be me,
right? And I just wanted to say that today is the day where the flower blooms.
And it will always you the one that I admire the most. tu me manques mon beau papillon.
