Here I am, laying between my bed wondering every possible ways to get out from this miserable realm. Which I started to realize that every person I love began to fade away little by little. Where did we go wrong?
So I still remember the first time I saw you, where my heartbeat started to beating fast as it could, making me nervous every seconds I'm staring those eyes. Your smile most likely melted the frozen soul of mine. You character bring me chaos inside my mind. And it was just Summer all the time. But, we never had a chance to introduce ourselves never once. So, I started to forget it and move on about those feelings.
As Autumn take place, something just wired my mind. I began to take those chances that I left before. I recall everything that I remembered and embrace everything to know you better. Trying my best to reach out those Brightest Star. Until that day, I defeated my fear at once and ignite the fire of courage. And it goes well even though I am halfway death. Day by day we get to know each other better. And you know what? That's make me happy all the time.
You are the reason I started to smile when the environment around me dragging me down towards the ground. I feel blessed every time you were around me. It's not about love that I wanted here, It was me trying to make friends with you. But, I'm got attached so much. Where the emotions started to posses everything. Words, Actions and Feelings begin to change.
I do not knows unless you speak it out what is going on here. Have I done anything mistake? Or have I hurt your feeling with my words. You suddenly change like the wind blows without colors. You need to listen towards your heart. Yeah, I should tell you earlier about this. But I'm not brave enough to speak it out. Cause it will just gonna make things worst and the pain got deeper.
Yes, you gave me HOPE, but not the hope that you were thinking about. It so vast if you discover it more detail. Which means, there is a misunderstanding here. Everything I've done is to make you happy. Why? Because, you are like my best friend, and I don't want to see my friend suffered.
Try to see things in a different angles, as you will see much likely wider the scope of perspective. I don't wanna lost you now, I never wish for it. But if you really do wanted to leave. I have no power to stop you. Do as you pleased. As long as you happy. It's okay, you can keep everything I gave you. It's yours now. But, if you wishing to stay. I'll be glad to hear that.
I hope you understand now, and I hope you will.
