The
Full moon of 31st
I have suffered from
the consciousness of the oblivion world. My time slowly devoured by the million
thought of suicidal dimension. It seems that I have already lost my focus on
living myself happy. The desire in making something good have faded away making
myself a body without a soul. What have I become? Did I just give up to myself?
What a shame.
March
turn out to be my Last Resort. But at the end, they betrayed my wishes and hope. Tears
turn out to be the redeemer of the pathetic child. The word of “Sorry” always
came out from the chapped lips. And by the time March step away, the child
begins to be someone seems so hopeless and give up to stay alive. He has left
his personality far away behind his past lifetime. And I begin to keep my
circle small.
The full moon of 31st
recently sure to making my day a little bit of delightful, on how nature can be
so beautiful and extraordinary. That night has taken my sadness away for a
while. I learn how nature sometimes heard our wishes. Those full moon will
surely be the greatest gift that I ever had in my life.
The old me will surely
be missed. I cannot find myself near the future and I keep wondering around the
field of existence. I once believe that life will bring happiness to everyone
who wishes for it. But its turn out to be, just a myth that everyone creates to
comfort themselves for something they do not want to be in the future. I am
such a fool to believe that and regret for every choice that I have make
throughout the past.
I nevertheless, wishing my life to be end
between the garden of life and death. Cause, the world that I live now will
surely full of hatred and reckless. Thank you for the people that always be
with me when I still alive. My wishes for you guys are “Keep on living your live boldly. And enjoy it while it still last”.
さよなら甘い生活
