The Night Thoughts (TNT)

A Ticking Bomb...

Time started to crumble and he began to stumble, recklessly his heart turn into an obsidian. Haven’t she saw the road that they use to get through all the mishap started to collapse into the oblivion of their nightmare age. Every second the air that he breathes out became a poison towards their never ending storyline. Why? Why suddenly she show up from the forgotten shadow, and claiming back her love towards the broken heart.

She is someone that he admire the most, he trusted her. His love towards her is like a star that takes a million years to collapse from the lonely universe. But in the end, it was just a dream that will never be truth. The despair has changed him completely. He became insecure in every situation. His heartbeat was completely out of rhythm. While her standing there, watching him suffer between life and death.

He started to get angry in every little thing that he has been through. He salvages every memory they had before and crying beneath his pillow wishing things will get better. Try to find all the courage that he have lost, and regain the strength that fade away. She had become the inspiration for him to get up and ignite the fire inside his spirit to move on

“His night thought become his motivation, and now he is ready to start all over again.”

The Last One

THE LAST ONE

In the sorrow of divine, there is something that we need to conclude from it. Something we all going to miss out from it. We surely understand the term of love which, one and another have to sacrifice their hope and dream. Those love will never be replaced by another, and the sadness continue to haunt every memory that we had together. The time we spent have fade away like a million fireflies that never to be seen.

Do not cry for something that we did not even know. Cause the tears will become a hatred to each other that consume the emotion of us. Something we know before, is going to be the roses to the garden of oblivion. Close your eyes and remember that, the love we use to have will surely going to miss both of us. Be sure, everything that we been through is a motivation for us to keep on living.

          Unintended act has ruin everything that we been planning the whole time. Those Castle of Immortality has cast a spell on me long time ago that love is not going to be last long for every person that I met. And I started to wonder what the points to love again when you already tried for a dozen time make yourself right up again. Maybe it is not the time yet, to come up this thing again near the future.

          The person that I know to be me long ago is already gone away and never return from the oblivion realm. We surely miss the day went we were young, and when the stress never bothers us. Let just this be The Last One.

The Stars Ain't Bright Enough...

Stars?
Hey, I hope you're fine. It almost a week you didn't show up. I'm not sure if you got my thoughts or not. What do you up to now? Have the universe treat you well?

Stars?
Did you know that I have fall in love with this one girl. I really wanted to tell you that this girl was amazing and wonderful inside my eyes. She is like the "Liszt's Campanella" played by Beethoven.

Stars?
I wish that she would have the same feeling as I am. In fact, I've done my best to let her know how much I love her. But its turn out that she doesn't want me to be more than that.

Stars?
Am I making anything wrong. Where did I go wrong? I suddenly feel emotionless after that moment. I keep on wondering every minute that I have.

Stars?
I hope that someday she will get a better men than I am. Even though our destiny not mean to be together. At least, I have the chance to tell her how much I love her and how beautiful she is when I saw her.

Cause,
The Stars that I know Ain't Bright like it used to be

The Ocean of million thought

The Ocean of million thought

                Ocean, nevertheless conquer most of the earth surface with all its mighty. In the deepest part of the ocean remain mystery from the world that hidden something we do not even know. As goes the thought of someone mind. Inside that beautiful mind of yours, lies a million thought that surely only you know each of it. I wonder is there any of those thought remind you of myself. The nightmare of losing you keep haunting me ever since we walk our own path.

                All we planned before, is just a dream that will never going to happen by a single entity. The sorrow of the beating heart keeps on telling the mind to never let go the memories of us. And its triggered the emotion and feelings to admire her from the shadow, where you know that she is no longer mine. Maybe, this is where I should grow up from it, learn from it and never try to do it again in the near future. who knows, we will meet again in the future where we are less arguing about the past.

                So now, it just a matter of time that will define our destiny. Learn to appreciate life, as life can be much surprisingly miraculous to live on. Go outside there, meet some bunch of new people and try not to get so attach with them. Well, its no one fault to blame. It just me doing wrong with things that I should not do in the first place. But what I know is that, HE must have something planned for me and for us. Life is to short and promise me that you will do the same as I did. If we were meant to be together, I will be waiting for that time to come.

A year has passed and the memories will never fade. Thank you for all those love and memories we spent together. I will never forget and forgive me for my sins towards you.

Hope

Our life is like riding a roller-coaster, sometimes we go up to feel how good it is to be on the top and sometimes we go down really hard to feel how it is to be on the bottom of our life journey. In your life, there must be a time where you fall in love with someone. Someone that makes you felt the butterfly in the stomach. Someone that makes your day written with full of joys and happiness. Isn’t that great to be like that for eternity.

Like a stars brighten the night of sorrow, like the ocean of sadness wash away all the pain in our heart. My night is full of a million thoughts. Living my life with a complete lies. My mind lost in the oblivion realm searching for the meaning of life. Its you who help me out escaping the  prison of frustration. You were the one that bring back the light of hope into the soul of emptiness. And I know, that I already falling for you through that moment.

But as the time moving forward, you began to changes. You started your journey without me. You were leaving, leaving everything behind for me to carry all the burden of desperation. But it’s okay, sometimes people need to change in order to become a better person. And for that, thank you for giving me the chance to feel how it is to fall in love again. I’ll be waiting for you even if it takes some times.

 

South Young Zeppelin West North

To the girl that I admire,

The first time I saw you everything around me slowing down. My heartbeat became abnormal for awhile and you stole my attention with those stare. I smile like a schizophrenia, that is because you show me those smile of yours. But, we never have a chance to know each other yet. Something tells me to get you on my contact list. And thank God, it works! thanks to the skill on "Stalking and Asking" (thank you also to the friend of mine that help me also). 

At first I really nervous and scared, so I decided to wait. Most of the time I will be like wondering. But, a friend of mine said "You should go ask her or else she'll be waiting". from there I make myself brave to overcome those fears. Yup! and again, I make the first move to something called an "Adventure of a Lifetime". But seriously, you are one of the reason I smile the whole day. Oh yeah, Sorry for buying you food without letting you know first. HAHAHA I shouldn't do that at the first place by the way. What I admire the most is that you always have those POSITIVE VIBE. I adore your smile mostly. Because your smile melt the frozen soul of mine. 

For me you are the person that always have that trait of "Happy Go Lucky", Moreover you're funny and really "ANNOYING" sometimes. It's okay as long as we have the chance to know each other. You're like a Moon that shine my night and Sun that highlights my way where ever I go. What can I say is that, I'm happy when you were around. Yup that is the truth and nothing but a truth.

Time flies by, where everything started to fade. Everything seems to change day by day. I wonder what you been up to with. It's okay if you like to have your own space. Yeah, sometimes people need to have a break for awhile. Especially during exam week right?. Take as much time as you pleased. Be happy as you always do. If you need me in the future, I'm always waiting for you. Thank you for being someone that make me feel happy. Even though we ain't like we use to be. Haitte, Arigato Gozaimasu. 

P/s : Goodluck for Final Examination and keep on fighting for the Top! (がんばって！)

Peace Out!